Wednesday, January 07, 2009
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Another page in my 2009 journal, this one is full of to do's want to's and have to's.....and I probably could have kept going had I had the room! LOL This really probably isn't finished, but it's finished for now. I used gesso tinted with a bit of pink paint, water color crayons, watercolor pencils, and water soluble graphite (love this stuff....i have pencils in light, medium and dark wash as well a bucket load of tinted graphite pencils), pitt pens, and hand carved eraser stamps all on the girl (and page)...which I can't wait to do more of because I stink to high heaven drawing people and definitely need the practice!
Midwinter Night Dream in Yellow: A New Day
Somewhere between the cold breath of winter and the warm hug of spring I am a bit caught in the January funk. The holidays are over (relief in some ways), the excitement of the past month has left me almost zombie like..lol....now I'm dreaming a bit of daisies popping up and
running around in flip flops again.
I have to be honest, I probably got in a funk because of something that was said about my 'pretty little houses' being too trendy and they are tired of them. Then someone said, ya but, who doesn't love houses...the home is where the heart is. Thanks for that balance of criticism with something positive. It's good to have both...gives you something to think about, something to dig down deep and see if what I'm doing is meaningful. And you know what? It is. To me. And that's what should count. I've started on a little crusade to revisit places or moments I've been and believe it or not...I still have more to go. I wasn't even a military brat..I just moved a lot :)
Finding that community, that sense of belonging, the friendship and creating a home is very, very important to me. I want that for more reasons than I care to even go into here. So yes, it's a reoccurring theme for me. Trendy? Maybe? Maybe I'm part of the trend--but it does all have a deeper meaning despite being a modern show of mixed media art. I also need to do this to work through some issues I have with some of the places I've been--I haven't even touched on those homes or communities.....all in good time. So whether anyone gets it, or anyone likes it...well I guess I can't get too wrapped up in it because first and foremost, it's for me. Besides, one negative shouldn't wipe out the hundreds of positives I've had from so many people around the world. AND I've still have a lot to be proud of. One of the things on my journal page mentions that in 2009, I need to learn to "Accept rejection gracefully". I've always had a hard time doing that. I'm actually very sensitive whether you believe me or not! Back in high school if someone I was sweet on didn't like me back or broke up with me (that didn't happen often..HAHA), I often times rebounded with a new and improved me in someway. I think I still do that in other areas of my life. I hear something not so great and I set out to prove them wrong! Well, there I go again--that's not really graceful. The high road would be--oh well, then don't cross my path anymore because I'm going to go the way I want whether you like it or not!
I guess the bottom line is, we all want to be accepted. But it's just not possible for everyone to do that, and that's okay. My world shouldn't get rocked because of a word of one or even a few. So it's time for me to get off my PITY POT and get back to my canvases. Life goes on!
Hope you have creative week ahead of you!